Have have one of those days where your kids just drive you absolutely bonkers, so much so you threaten to leave your other half with the kids and tell him you will happily give him full custody? (To which of course he replied "LIKE HELL, I'll fight you for 50/50!)
Good God, do I REALLY want anymore kids? Can I even cope with anymore kids? Honestly!
Monday, March 10, 2008
The embarassing part is...
Okay, so this is where I confess the REALLY embarassing part from my last post.
When I say cement mixer. I mean one of those small ones. *sheepish grin*
Picture this. The boys needed a cement mixer to put my new clothesline in.
I forgot it was in our yard and just reversed straight into the blasted thing, with an almighty bang. Boo Hoo Hoo,my poor car! AND my poor ego!
The last thing I hit was a parked car when I was trying to pull out of a car park!
When I say cement mixer. I mean one of those small ones. *sheepish grin*
Picture this. The boys needed a cement mixer to put my new clothesline in.
I forgot it was in our yard and just reversed straight into the blasted thing, with an almighty bang. Boo Hoo Hoo,my poor car! AND my poor ego!
The last thing I hit was a parked car when I was trying to pull out of a car park!
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Lunatic Driver coming to a town near you
I am so freakin' angry at myself, I just reversed my Tarago into a cement mixer. Fuckity Fuck Fuck Fuck.
The only two times in my life that I have had an accident are when I have hit a stationary object. How on God's green earth did I ever get a friggin license?
So Mad.
The only two times in my life that I have had an accident are when I have hit a stationary object. How on God's green earth did I ever get a friggin license?
So Mad.
Friday, March 7, 2008
One beer musings
33 hours down, 4 to go. My feet are about to fall off I'm sure of it. My eyes are hanging out of my head. My feet are swollen and aching. My back aches. Every inch of my body aches. Why did I want to go back to work? That's right a little thing called money, so we could have extra of it. Although my childcare fees are going to double, and petrol is going to cost me at LEAST $90 a week. AT LEAST! I keep telling myself, "You are building your super, AND will have extra money" ad keep ignoring the fact that I am doing an unskilled labour intensive job, SOMEONE has to stack shelves right? Or all the rich people wouldn't be able to eat. Right? Yes Amber.
I've set up a contribution of $20 per week to my super, which means as a low income earner the government will contribute quite a bit to my super, okay so $1500 a year might not seem like a LOT, but it's $1500 I wouldn't have had otherwise! Instead of one payment, I get 3 payments. You know you are nerdy when you are 43 years off retiring, and you are getting excited about your super.
What else? I've changed the account my pay goes into, because we don't budget for the money if it goes into my regular bank account, I fritter it away here and there, but never have anything to show for it, but by not having ready access to it, means that I have to put some thought into spending it first. I have a few bills I want to get cleared up, then I want to save some money, and then start funelling some money into our loans. It's hard to be financially dedicated, it's so nice having that extra money, but 12 months of being strict will set us up for life. No joke! We have to renovate the house, make it bigger and do some improvements. That' s it. We have no need to buy anything else, we now have a car that can comfortably fit in more kids. Our debt is under control, and soon we will be paying a stack off our debts, and have them paid off quicksmart, which will mean we will have so much money left over, to save, or pay off the house, or even go on our first family holiday, now THAT would be nice!
Strict, Budget, Lifetime Setup! It is totally achieveable with a bit of dedication.
I've set up a contribution of $20 per week to my super, which means as a low income earner the government will contribute quite a bit to my super, okay so $1500 a year might not seem like a LOT, but it's $1500 I wouldn't have had otherwise! Instead of one payment, I get 3 payments. You know you are nerdy when you are 43 years off retiring, and you are getting excited about your super.
What else? I've changed the account my pay goes into, because we don't budget for the money if it goes into my regular bank account, I fritter it away here and there, but never have anything to show for it, but by not having ready access to it, means that I have to put some thought into spending it first. I have a few bills I want to get cleared up, then I want to save some money, and then start funelling some money into our loans. It's hard to be financially dedicated, it's so nice having that extra money, but 12 months of being strict will set us up for life. No joke! We have to renovate the house, make it bigger and do some improvements. That' s it. We have no need to buy anything else, we now have a car that can comfortably fit in more kids. Our debt is under control, and soon we will be paying a stack off our debts, and have them paid off quicksmart, which will mean we will have so much money left over, to save, or pay off the house, or even go on our first family holiday, now THAT would be nice!
Strict, Budget, Lifetime Setup! It is totally achieveable with a bit of dedication.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
How?
How on earth am I supposed to find time to study, and clean house, and spend time wth Craig, and be a parent, and play netball, and work 37 hours a week?
I know that I won't have 37 hours everyweek, but gee I really need to get my shit sorted before we are half way into the semester and I've done jack shit, and then panic, and drop out because I've got so far behind I don't think I can catch up.
Plan Amber, Organise Amber. YOU can do this. Relax your standards, Focus on eating properly, exercising, routines, relaxing as a parent, stop and take time to smell the roses. The world will not crumble if I don't fold washing, and trash the lounge room with the kids instead. Stop, and think, plan, and organise.. I CAN DO THIS!
I know that I won't have 37 hours everyweek, but gee I really need to get my shit sorted before we are half way into the semester and I've done jack shit, and then panic, and drop out because I've got so far behind I don't think I can catch up.
Plan Amber, Organise Amber. YOU can do this. Relax your standards, Focus on eating properly, exercising, routines, relaxing as a parent, stop and take time to smell the roses. The world will not crumble if I don't fold washing, and trash the lounge room with the kids instead. Stop, and think, plan, and organise.. I CAN DO THIS!
Monday, March 3, 2008
Exhaustion and Insomnia
How on earth can I be suffering from insomnia when I am utterly exhausted to the bone?
Note to self- You NEED to exercise. Start looking after your body.
Note to self- You NEED to exercise. Start looking after your body.
Friday, February 22, 2008
Flogging a dead horse
I realise that me whinging about the kids grandparents is equivalent to flogging a dead horse.
But I truly cannot get over the fact that it appears these people DO NOT CARE about their Grandkids.
Why can't they offer to take them to the park for a few hours?
Why can't they taken them for a night?
Why can't they offer to have the kids for a weekend?
Why can't they babysit my kids without stipulations such as, "not before X time, and make sure you are home at X time:
Are my kids that much of a burden to you that you don't want to see them?
Yes, I'm emotional, and sad, I've worked all day today and I'm exhausted, and I tend to cry when I'm really tired.
I wish it was as simple as 'they are the ones who are missing out' but it's not. My bloody kids are the ones who are missing out.
But I truly cannot get over the fact that it appears these people DO NOT CARE about their Grandkids.
Why can't they offer to take them to the park for a few hours?
Why can't they taken them for a night?
Why can't they offer to have the kids for a weekend?
Why can't they babysit my kids without stipulations such as, "not before X time, and make sure you are home at X time:
Are my kids that much of a burden to you that you don't want to see them?
Yes, I'm emotional, and sad, I've worked all day today and I'm exhausted, and I tend to cry when I'm really tired.
I wish it was as simple as 'they are the ones who are missing out' but it's not. My bloody kids are the ones who are missing out.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
I am so happy!
I heard from my best friend today, she is coming home on April 24th! She has only been gone since April last year, she moved to WA in search of the big dollars and an adventure. She found it alright and is now 6 months pregnant!
I was so devastated that I wouldn't get to see her pregnant or go and visit her in the hospital with a newborn baby.
I remember when I had Ky, I had him at 5:45am. I rang my Chloe at 8am because I was bored and needed some entertaining! She came down and spent most of the day with me, bless her cotton socks.
I'm sure this would seem so trivial to some, but I have been praying to the God that I don't believe in that she would be home so I could see her pregnant and see her with a newborn baby.
She has been my best friend since I was born, so nearly 22 years, and I couldn't imagine missing out on such a huge part of her life, when she was there for mine....
Which leaves the question.....maybe there is a God......? *grin*
I was so devastated that I wouldn't get to see her pregnant or go and visit her in the hospital with a newborn baby.
I remember when I had Ky, I had him at 5:45am. I rang my Chloe at 8am because I was bored and needed some entertaining! She came down and spent most of the day with me, bless her cotton socks.
I'm sure this would seem so trivial to some, but I have been praying to the God that I don't believe in that she would be home so I could see her pregnant and see her with a newborn baby.
She has been my best friend since I was born, so nearly 22 years, and I couldn't imagine missing out on such a huge part of her life, when she was there for mine....
Which leaves the question.....maybe there is a God......? *grin*
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Unhappy
I feel sick and desperately unhappy.
Why is it, every so ofton I have these mini melt downs.
Nothing makes sense, and everything hurts, I cannot make a simple standard decision without feeling wracked with guilt.
Why is it, every so ofton I have these mini melt downs.
Nothing makes sense, and everything hurts, I cannot make a simple standard decision without feeling wracked with guilt.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Just between us....
I am excited because I got a new clothesline today *woot* Finally I will have enough room to hang a few loads of washing out, two rails just wasn't cutting it. Pity it's only just in time for the bloody hot weather in Tassie to subside so I can't dry my washing! You know things are dire when you get excited over a new washing line!
But I am preparing for this winter. I have a new clotheshorse (now I have 2) and Craig is putting up some washing line string under our porch so we can dry some clothes under there. I was to use the drier as little as possible this winter. Oh Oh Oh! AND I've already had our first load of wood delivered. Now this might seem strange to you people, but for me this it pure utter organisation, usually I ring the next door neighbour and our conversationg goes like this
Me:" Could I get some wood when you have some spare time please mate?"
Neighbour: "How much do you have?"
Me: (rather sheepishly) "Two pieces"
Then he either brings us a load that day, or if he is too busy he brings us wood from his pile. He is a good neighbour. So in my effort to be organised, and get my entire life in order the wood ordering has started! I plan to order one load a fortnight, and then we shouldn't need to order any for the winter season.
I got out in the garden today, and my lovely neighbours wife came and helped me weed up the side of the house, then we went for a drive to buy some plants. She's going to help me plant them on Saturday. I can't wait to have a garden that looks nice, and a garden that I am proud of! We currently have golden zucchini's growing, so I think I will be making a lot of zucchini slice in the next few weeks. And silverbeet, honestly, what are you supposed to do with a shitload of that stuff? It's tastes atrocious, but I cook it and we eat it for no other reason than that it's good for us. *bleurgh* Our corn is nearly ready to pick, I am so looking forward to that! Our garden this year has been okay, but we haven't had a lof of variety, I can't wait for the next summer season so that we can plant up big and have a higher yield! I bought some broccoli, cauliflower and cabbage seedlings today, I'll be planting those on the weekend too I think.
Okay, well enough boring talk today! Simple things amuse simple minds
But I am preparing for this winter. I have a new clotheshorse (now I have 2) and Craig is putting up some washing line string under our porch so we can dry some clothes under there. I was to use the drier as little as possible this winter. Oh Oh Oh! AND I've already had our first load of wood delivered. Now this might seem strange to you people, but for me this it pure utter organisation, usually I ring the next door neighbour and our conversationg goes like this
Me:" Could I get some wood when you have some spare time please mate?"
Neighbour: "How much do you have?"
Me: (rather sheepishly) "Two pieces"
Then he either brings us a load that day, or if he is too busy he brings us wood from his pile. He is a good neighbour. So in my effort to be organised, and get my entire life in order the wood ordering has started! I plan to order one load a fortnight, and then we shouldn't need to order any for the winter season.
I got out in the garden today, and my lovely neighbours wife came and helped me weed up the side of the house, then we went for a drive to buy some plants. She's going to help me plant them on Saturday. I can't wait to have a garden that looks nice, and a garden that I am proud of! We currently have golden zucchini's growing, so I think I will be making a lot of zucchini slice in the next few weeks. And silverbeet, honestly, what are you supposed to do with a shitload of that stuff? It's tastes atrocious, but I cook it and we eat it for no other reason than that it's good for us. *bleurgh* Our corn is nearly ready to pick, I am so looking forward to that! Our garden this year has been okay, but we haven't had a lof of variety, I can't wait for the next summer season so that we can plant up big and have a higher yield! I bought some broccoli, cauliflower and cabbage seedlings today, I'll be planting those on the weekend too I think.
Okay, well enough boring talk today! Simple things amuse simple minds
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