Friday, April 18, 2008

Chemical Pregnancy

I'm not pregnant, it was a chemical pregnancy.

I'm devastated, I felt pregnant, I hate TWO fucking tests tell me I was pregnant. i couldn't keep a secret and told people I was pregnant, and now I have to go and untell people. I feel like such a fucking dumbarse.
If I ever get pregnant again, I'm not telling anyone until I have a baby coming out of my vagina. Truth be told, I don't know if I can keep doing this. One early loss is devastating, I don't know if I could handle any more.

I'm so sad, and I am so numbing that pain with alcohol tonight,

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh I am so sorry for your loss *hugs*

Sarah said...

You are so not a dumb arse, Amber, and I am sorry for your loss. :(